i dont think i can bring myself to talk to jenny anymore. its just too hard. theres so much i want to tell her. but i cant. i really dont know what to do. if i tell her anything, i risk not being able to be even a friend at all.
i cut my hair today. i think 22 pounds didnt do me any good.. i feel quite upset. im looking forward to my hair growing out..
on the bright side, i've made significant improvement on the guitar. i feel like i can actually play something now. thats a good thing.
and i managed to buy some stuff that im happy with today. im glad also that easter is coming. and that i have been doing my quiet time consistently over the last 3 days.
thanks to jon, i am not fully converted to kpop. again.. after so many years, ive come full circle.
SSC! finishing up. just abit more to go.. the finish line is in sight!! yay.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Sunday, March 8, 2009
The Fruit of the Spirit
today's sermon was actually surprisingly, pretty good. i was initially expecting a very terrible sermon when i saw uncle yeng shiong's name as speaker this morning. i dont dislike him of course, he is a very nice and affable man but i had the impression that he preaches the Word very poorly.
Today's sermon was Galatians 5: 16-26 & 1 Peter 1: 3-9, which spoke about the fruit of the Spirit and the acts of sinful nature. "the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control." this morning, nicola came to sit at my row but she sat 2 seats away from me. i did not want to look at her at first because she was obviously trying to avoid contact with me. however as i read this sentence, i felt the sudden urge to go up to her and tell her my friend, i am not angry with u neither am i upset. it was just for a minute that i felt that way, and i had long forgiven her.
this morning, i arrived at church and jenny was one of the stewards. i dont know what came over me but i just quickly slid my way through and glided to my seat on the far side of the church while she was talking to somebody. i just cant bring myself to look at her straight in the face and talk to her anymore, not for now at least. i really dont know how to feel even though i've told myself that she is not worth it. anw, after church i approached nicola and told her that i am not upset with her, and she immediately broke into tears. i am a sucker for tears, and my heart just shatters when i see somebody close to me cry. i gave her a hug and told her it's all okay, and people started wondering what had happened to her, if i'd bullied her or something. i brought her to the corner and we talked abit. she asked if i am talking to jenny now and i told her that we aren't really. something inside me wanted to tell her that u are right, actually i have some feelings for her. but i told her instead that i thought jenny was just a very nice girl. sigh. i think things are not meant to be and if the Lord chooses it to be this way, so let it be. in any case, i have decided that next week, i am going to try out audacious city church. who knows, it might turn out to be amazing.
i have been reminded also that if i try to do everything in my life on my own, i will never be able to make it and that my body will break, my mind will buckle. but if i cast everything - my stress, my work, my cares, my woes, my problems, my JOY - to the Lord, i will find strength in him and i will find JOY in his strength and i will be able to achieve everything because his Spirit is in me! what a revelation! what a lovely thing! i believe that with this mentality, i will be able to achieve great things and live life with a positive attitude instead of trudging to everywhere and dragging myself to do things. i am determined to approach everything optimistically and positively because that is truly living like Christ.
looking forward to looking at apartments with jonny! not so looking forward to chionging SSC! looking forward to laserquest and SF retreat. looking forward to MIPS and yunyi's coffee-meetup on wednesday too. gosh, my week's packed!
Today's sermon was Galatians 5: 16-26 & 1 Peter 1: 3-9, which spoke about the fruit of the Spirit and the acts of sinful nature. "the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control." this morning, nicola came to sit at my row but she sat 2 seats away from me. i did not want to look at her at first because she was obviously trying to avoid contact with me. however as i read this sentence, i felt the sudden urge to go up to her and tell her my friend, i am not angry with u neither am i upset. it was just for a minute that i felt that way, and i had long forgiven her.
this morning, i arrived at church and jenny was one of the stewards. i dont know what came over me but i just quickly slid my way through and glided to my seat on the far side of the church while she was talking to somebody. i just cant bring myself to look at her straight in the face and talk to her anymore, not for now at least. i really dont know how to feel even though i've told myself that she is not worth it. anw, after church i approached nicola and told her that i am not upset with her, and she immediately broke into tears. i am a sucker for tears, and my heart just shatters when i see somebody close to me cry. i gave her a hug and told her it's all okay, and people started wondering what had happened to her, if i'd bullied her or something. i brought her to the corner and we talked abit. she asked if i am talking to jenny now and i told her that we aren't really. something inside me wanted to tell her that u are right, actually i have some feelings for her. but i told her instead that i thought jenny was just a very nice girl. sigh. i think things are not meant to be and if the Lord chooses it to be this way, so let it be. in any case, i have decided that next week, i am going to try out audacious city church. who knows, it might turn out to be amazing.
i have been reminded also that if i try to do everything in my life on my own, i will never be able to make it and that my body will break, my mind will buckle. but if i cast everything - my stress, my work, my cares, my woes, my problems, my JOY - to the Lord, i will find strength in him and i will find JOY in his strength and i will be able to achieve everything because his Spirit is in me! what a revelation! what a lovely thing! i believe that with this mentality, i will be able to achieve great things and live life with a positive attitude instead of trudging to everywhere and dragging myself to do things. i am determined to approach everything optimistically and positively because that is truly living like Christ.
looking forward to looking at apartments with jonny! not so looking forward to chionging SSC! looking forward to laserquest and SF retreat. looking forward to MIPS and yunyi's coffee-meetup on wednesday too. gosh, my week's packed!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
whoever said uni was the best time of your life..
im enjoying uni, but i find it hell of a tough task managing the work load. i dont know if its because im doing medicine, or if im just a very inefficient student. basically when i study from martini, i like to rewrite what i read into my own notes and try to make short summaries. people might say that this is doing a double job and thus, being inefficient. i just feel it might help to a certain extent in like helping to absorb what i am studying. i dont know. all i know is that i am spending alot of time on pbl.
i got my results back last week and praise God, i passed. i told myself that whatever the result was, God takes the glory. whether i pass, fail, or do okay. i did okay, in the lower half of the cohort but i guess its my first academic exam in a long time now, and also because i didnt really know how to go about doing my revision because it's my first exam in uni. however, i am motivated even more to study even harder now. i view it as a sign from God that i am doing ok, but im not getting the honours and distinctions that i should be getting because im not working hard enough. i cant really remember when was the last time i slept more than 6 hours now. it must have been at least 2 weeks ago. anyhow, i am determined to work hard. i am sort of going against the Lord's instructions to have abundant rest in 2009, but i really am unable to do so because if i do, i will be lagging behind. there's ssc to do, pbl, portfolio and on top of it all, there's osces looming and i want to start doing underground revision for that with respect to the anatomy and innervation (which i am rather weak at). i have decided that i am going to do loads of underground revision and studying and not let the rest know because to be honest, i want to beat them. yenyeen and claudia and jon are really tough to beat but its getting pretty damn competitive and i hope and pray fervently that i have what it takes to compete and BEAT them.
also, i am looking forward to easter when i am going to go to spain for 7 days, and return on the 3rd of april for jason mraz and then leave again for copenhagen and stockholm for another week. i must really plan my finances well because i dont want to end up having to ask dad for money, that will just go to show that i havent done a good job at monitoring my expenditure. i am very thankful for having befriended cheryl, for i think she is just absolutely amazing and she has been doing a fab job at searching for transport and the basic planning of the trip.
lastly, i have been going thru a pretty horrible day. today there was a bit of a confrontation between jenny and i. i just cracked a joke about how i miss her and my life is down in the dumps cos i havent been talking much to her for a very long time, and she grew silent on msn and then she said that she feels awkward because she doesnt want to lead me on and that nicola has been telling her alot of her own assumptions that i am fond of her. why is it that this always happens to me? why is it that when i just start to begin to have some sort of feelings or attraction to somebody whom i think is worth it and worth being attracted to, that person must turn away from me? i have to put on a fake front and say that i only view her as a friend, cos i dont want to even lose her as that. i think i am destined to live my life single. who knows. yc said that one day, i will find the right one. i am rather disillusioned about that and i dont think it's gonna happen, unfortunately. however, subsequently she did try to make some small talk on msn and talking abt gg to king's church and audacious church. i dont know if her saying she wants to go to those 2 churches was a signal but i can't be arsed anymore, to be honest. i just want to be sad and emo to my rachael yamagata songs. only God can make me feel better now. and God, i have so much more work to do tonight. how am i going to survive? please treat me as u deem fit, if u want me to fall asleep, make me. if not, help me. amen.
i got my results back last week and praise God, i passed. i told myself that whatever the result was, God takes the glory. whether i pass, fail, or do okay. i did okay, in the lower half of the cohort but i guess its my first academic exam in a long time now, and also because i didnt really know how to go about doing my revision because it's my first exam in uni. however, i am motivated even more to study even harder now. i view it as a sign from God that i am doing ok, but im not getting the honours and distinctions that i should be getting because im not working hard enough. i cant really remember when was the last time i slept more than 6 hours now. it must have been at least 2 weeks ago. anyhow, i am determined to work hard. i am sort of going against the Lord's instructions to have abundant rest in 2009, but i really am unable to do so because if i do, i will be lagging behind. there's ssc to do, pbl, portfolio and on top of it all, there's osces looming and i want to start doing underground revision for that with respect to the anatomy and innervation (which i am rather weak at). i have decided that i am going to do loads of underground revision and studying and not let the rest know because to be honest, i want to beat them. yenyeen and claudia and jon are really tough to beat but its getting pretty damn competitive and i hope and pray fervently that i have what it takes to compete and BEAT them.
also, i am looking forward to easter when i am going to go to spain for 7 days, and return on the 3rd of april for jason mraz and then leave again for copenhagen and stockholm for another week. i must really plan my finances well because i dont want to end up having to ask dad for money, that will just go to show that i havent done a good job at monitoring my expenditure. i am very thankful for having befriended cheryl, for i think she is just absolutely amazing and she has been doing a fab job at searching for transport and the basic planning of the trip.
lastly, i have been going thru a pretty horrible day. today there was a bit of a confrontation between jenny and i. i just cracked a joke about how i miss her and my life is down in the dumps cos i havent been talking much to her for a very long time, and she grew silent on msn and then she said that she feels awkward because she doesnt want to lead me on and that nicola has been telling her alot of her own assumptions that i am fond of her. why is it that this always happens to me? why is it that when i just start to begin to have some sort of feelings or attraction to somebody whom i think is worth it and worth being attracted to, that person must turn away from me? i have to put on a fake front and say that i only view her as a friend, cos i dont want to even lose her as that. i think i am destined to live my life single. who knows. yc said that one day, i will find the right one. i am rather disillusioned about that and i dont think it's gonna happen, unfortunately. however, subsequently she did try to make some small talk on msn and talking abt gg to king's church and audacious church. i dont know if her saying she wants to go to those 2 churches was a signal but i can't be arsed anymore, to be honest. i just want to be sad and emo to my rachael yamagata songs. only God can make me feel better now. and God, i have so much more work to do tonight. how am i going to survive? please treat me as u deem fit, if u want me to fall asleep, make me. if not, help me. amen.
23rd December 2008
I’m home!!!! It’s such a good feeling to be home again. Although at the beginning when I first entered my room I felt so lost and there was a weird feeling like I didn’t know my room. Anyway, it’s good to be back to see old friends, my family and good ol’ Singapore in general. But one thing I definitely felt was I knew from this trip back that I have gotten used to life over in Manchester. I actually miss a couple of things over there! Like the dim sum.
I attended Cheryl Leong’s 21st birthday party and then I went to meet Ngees for supper at Bedok Blk 85. It was nice to see Joyce & Marcus & of course Cheryl, and Ngees and I had such a great talk. I told her a lot about what’d been happening in my life in Manchester and about my new and improved lifestyle which I want to upkeep.
Looking forward to the coming days, when I am going to start my revision. Not so much looking forward to Xmas Eve, Xmas itself and New Year – cos I don’t know who I am going to spend it with. Didn’t make any arrangements. Oh well, I will hit the books then. I’ve been rather worried about my studies and I wanna get down to studying as soon as I can, and I just took a look at the Sem 1 sample questions and I am getting worried cos I don’t know how to answer a number of them. I’m kinda glad now that i brought my Martini back so I can study from it.
Praise God, thank You for bringing me home safely and instilling in me the constant urge to want to get my studies right and with Your love and guidance, I am not afraid of the upcoming revision nor am I afraid of sitting for the exams come January. I know that I will do just fine.
29th December 2008
I am studying or at least, trying to study right now. It is true what the rest said that it is nearly impossible to get into the studying mode when at home. But I remain confident that I am able to get into the full swing of things soon.
I went to church yesterday at Suntec and I’m glad to say that I enjoyed, appreciated and felt so blessed to attend the service. I’m also so appreciative of the fact that I am able to attend both a big church and a family-like church in Manchester. Pastor Prince was as usual, hugely entertaining yet at the same time, preaching the word to the best of his abilities. I honestly feel that he delivers way better sermons than Pastor Kim ever could.
Pastor Prince highlighted that God spoke to him and told him that 2009 is the acceptable year of the Lord. I do hope and pray that it will come true because I have a lot of expectations for 2009, and the coming years in Manchester in fact. I am on a journey in my life that is the most thrilling, exciting and unpredictable of my life and these are the years that will form what kind of person I will become in the future. I have to grasp the opportunities and be the best person I want to be.
Last but not least, I realized that I lost my organizer on Sunday. Frantically, I went to check my bank accounts for fear that someone might have been able to figure the back pages out and siphon my money. However, thank God that i was anxious for nothing because the kind people at Starbucks had picked my book up. Thank you Father Lord for watching over me and showering your blessings on me without asking for anything in return. Amen!
30th December 2008
I just got back from the potluck at Danette’s place not long ago, and I am glad to say that it was quite a success! To a certain extent. Lol.. there were 13 of us in total, more were supposed to come but I guess we did have our fun. I was quite turned off when Danette’s brother, Austin’s friends arrived and they are quite a rowdy bunch.
I feel quite sorry for Danette actually. I look at her life and I am thankful that I have my life. I used to be quite envious of people like her, who never have a lack of friends and seem to have such a happening life. However, over the course of days that I have sort of mixed around with her friends, I have realized that her life is quite sad. She does not seem to have any private time to herself. I don’t know if she doesn’t mind it or anything of that sort, but I think that everyone deserves and should demand some private time for him or herself. Her friends don’t seem to bother or even have any respect for her or her family, and they just come and go as they please. It is quite worrying looking at how they can do that even in the dead of night! I am quite concerned about how her parents keep a rein on their children. Having said that, I am pleasantly surprised the way Danette has turned out, not being a smoker or heavy drinker and so forth.
Another thing I want to reflect on is my discussion with Nicole about Justin tonight. I’ve been spending more time chatting with Nicole recently and I have realized that she is not half as bad or childish as I thought she was. My impression of her has been altered. She told me tonight that she did not want to live with Justin in 2nd year anymore, because she has found Justin to be “touchy, super imposing and fake”. I replied a rather lengthy, honest opinion of what I think of Justin and I think I was quite pleased with myself the way I replied because I was true to myself. I really think that Justin is not a bad person, he is in fact very thoughtful and when he identifies someone as a close friend, he does everything he can for the person. I think that is something that makes him very endearing as a friend. However, sometimes he can appear too overbearing and imposing on people, which is true what Nicole said. He does not seem to know the limit when a person wants to have and enjoy some private time. He needs to understand that even a good friend does not exactly continue hanging out in another friend’s room into the early hours of the morning.
I just hope n pray to God that Justin will be able to take the news in a positive light and not be too upset about everything. And that relationships between their group will not be strained too badly from this entire incident. Father Lord grant me the strength and ability to be a mediator if need be, and in your Name I hope I can do a decent job. I certainly do not want Nicole and Justin to become like how YC and Justin have become. Amen.
I’m home!!!! It’s such a good feeling to be home again. Although at the beginning when I first entered my room I felt so lost and there was a weird feeling like I didn’t know my room. Anyway, it’s good to be back to see old friends, my family and good ol’ Singapore in general. But one thing I definitely felt was I knew from this trip back that I have gotten used to life over in Manchester. I actually miss a couple of things over there! Like the dim sum.
I attended Cheryl Leong’s 21st birthday party and then I went to meet Ngees for supper at Bedok Blk 85. It was nice to see Joyce & Marcus & of course Cheryl, and Ngees and I had such a great talk. I told her a lot about what’d been happening in my life in Manchester and about my new and improved lifestyle which I want to upkeep.
Looking forward to the coming days, when I am going to start my revision. Not so much looking forward to Xmas Eve, Xmas itself and New Year – cos I don’t know who I am going to spend it with. Didn’t make any arrangements. Oh well, I will hit the books then. I’ve been rather worried about my studies and I wanna get down to studying as soon as I can, and I just took a look at the Sem 1 sample questions and I am getting worried cos I don’t know how to answer a number of them. I’m kinda glad now that i brought my Martini back so I can study from it.
Praise God, thank You for bringing me home safely and instilling in me the constant urge to want to get my studies right and with Your love and guidance, I am not afraid of the upcoming revision nor am I afraid of sitting for the exams come January. I know that I will do just fine.
29th December 2008
I am studying or at least, trying to study right now. It is true what the rest said that it is nearly impossible to get into the studying mode when at home. But I remain confident that I am able to get into the full swing of things soon.
I went to church yesterday at Suntec and I’m glad to say that I enjoyed, appreciated and felt so blessed to attend the service. I’m also so appreciative of the fact that I am able to attend both a big church and a family-like church in Manchester. Pastor Prince was as usual, hugely entertaining yet at the same time, preaching the word to the best of his abilities. I honestly feel that he delivers way better sermons than Pastor Kim ever could.
Pastor Prince highlighted that God spoke to him and told him that 2009 is the acceptable year of the Lord. I do hope and pray that it will come true because I have a lot of expectations for 2009, and the coming years in Manchester in fact. I am on a journey in my life that is the most thrilling, exciting and unpredictable of my life and these are the years that will form what kind of person I will become in the future. I have to grasp the opportunities and be the best person I want to be.
Last but not least, I realized that I lost my organizer on Sunday. Frantically, I went to check my bank accounts for fear that someone might have been able to figure the back pages out and siphon my money. However, thank God that i was anxious for nothing because the kind people at Starbucks had picked my book up. Thank you Father Lord for watching over me and showering your blessings on me without asking for anything in return. Amen!
30th December 2008
I just got back from the potluck at Danette’s place not long ago, and I am glad to say that it was quite a success! To a certain extent. Lol.. there were 13 of us in total, more were supposed to come but I guess we did have our fun. I was quite turned off when Danette’s brother, Austin’s friends arrived and they are quite a rowdy bunch.
I feel quite sorry for Danette actually. I look at her life and I am thankful that I have my life. I used to be quite envious of people like her, who never have a lack of friends and seem to have such a happening life. However, over the course of days that I have sort of mixed around with her friends, I have realized that her life is quite sad. She does not seem to have any private time to herself. I don’t know if she doesn’t mind it or anything of that sort, but I think that everyone deserves and should demand some private time for him or herself. Her friends don’t seem to bother or even have any respect for her or her family, and they just come and go as they please. It is quite worrying looking at how they can do that even in the dead of night! I am quite concerned about how her parents keep a rein on their children. Having said that, I am pleasantly surprised the way Danette has turned out, not being a smoker or heavy drinker and so forth.
Another thing I want to reflect on is my discussion with Nicole about Justin tonight. I’ve been spending more time chatting with Nicole recently and I have realized that she is not half as bad or childish as I thought she was. My impression of her has been altered. She told me tonight that she did not want to live with Justin in 2nd year anymore, because she has found Justin to be “touchy, super imposing and fake”. I replied a rather lengthy, honest opinion of what I think of Justin and I think I was quite pleased with myself the way I replied because I was true to myself. I really think that Justin is not a bad person, he is in fact very thoughtful and when he identifies someone as a close friend, he does everything he can for the person. I think that is something that makes him very endearing as a friend. However, sometimes he can appear too overbearing and imposing on people, which is true what Nicole said. He does not seem to know the limit when a person wants to have and enjoy some private time. He needs to understand that even a good friend does not exactly continue hanging out in another friend’s room into the early hours of the morning.
I just hope n pray to God that Justin will be able to take the news in a positive light and not be too upset about everything. And that relationships between their group will not be strained too badly from this entire incident. Father Lord grant me the strength and ability to be a mediator if need be, and in your Name I hope I can do a decent job. I certainly do not want Nicole and Justin to become like how YC and Justin have become. Amen.
revival..
i have decided to revive this blog cos im getting kinda tired of having to open microsoft word every time i want to record a journal entry and having to scroll all the way down, plus its easier to do it on a blog anyway.
here are my past entries.
Monday, December 3, 2007
my first service
yesterday i went for my first church service at new creation church.
i've always wanted to attend service. why so much later in my life? why the sudden interest in christianity. well there have been times in my life when i have experienced all-time lows and felt very depressed. especially last year when i was going through a very rough patch and everything didnt go my way. during the time i was feeling like this, i was trying to find ways to get myself back on track and feel better about myself. i remember walking into my sister's room and picking up the bible and started to read it. Jesus loves me, that's why He led me to Him. and many more events have inspired me, like reading alvin's blog, and many more instances of which i cant really remember now.
anyway, i enjoyed the experience and i will be very willing to go again and make it part of my life. and who knows, i might convert one day. Amen.
i'm starting work next monday. it's a mixed feeling, calling christina up and saying i want to take up the job. on one hand i feel very excited because it's a new job, a new start and time to make some money. but on the other, i feel quite sian because the working hours are uber uber long and this means no life on weekdays. but not that it matters, cos no one asks me out anyway. which brings me to my next point..
i feel like ive become forgotten by most, if not all, of my friends. my life is really about basketball, slacking at home and nothing much else. people like nl and ym are always like yeah will call u out, or yeah will ttyl, but they never do. and the guys in the study gang are always doing things on their own. i wish i had a group of friends very tightly knitted, like friends the tv show. but then again, relationships would form, then break, and everything would grow awkward. it's always the case..
i completed the 10km run on sunday. it was a very easy run, and i enjoyed it quite alot. but looking back i should have applied for the 21km.. i should have set higher standards. one day i intend to run a marathon. perhaps the london marathon, cos i cant make the sg marathon next yr. but well 10km is a start. Father, please give me the strength to keep running and stay healthy and injury free.
i've always wanted to attend service. why so much later in my life? why the sudden interest in christianity. well there have been times in my life when i have experienced all-time lows and felt very depressed. especially last year when i was going through a very rough patch and everything didnt go my way. during the time i was feeling like this, i was trying to find ways to get myself back on track and feel better about myself. i remember walking into my sister's room and picking up the bible and started to read it. Jesus loves me, that's why He led me to Him. and many more events have inspired me, like reading alvin's blog, and many more instances of which i cant really remember now.
anyway, i enjoyed the experience and i will be very willing to go again and make it part of my life. and who knows, i might convert one day. Amen.
i'm starting work next monday. it's a mixed feeling, calling christina up and saying i want to take up the job. on one hand i feel very excited because it's a new job, a new start and time to make some money. but on the other, i feel quite sian because the working hours are uber uber long and this means no life on weekdays. but not that it matters, cos no one asks me out anyway. which brings me to my next point..
i feel like ive become forgotten by most, if not all, of my friends. my life is really about basketball, slacking at home and nothing much else. people like nl and ym are always like yeah will call u out, or yeah will ttyl, but they never do. and the guys in the study gang are always doing things on their own. i wish i had a group of friends very tightly knitted, like friends the tv show. but then again, relationships would form, then break, and everything would grow awkward. it's always the case..
i completed the 10km run on sunday. it was a very easy run, and i enjoyed it quite alot. but looking back i should have applied for the 21km.. i should have set higher standards. one day i intend to run a marathon. perhaps the london marathon, cos i cant make the sg marathon next yr. but well 10km is a start. Father, please give me the strength to keep running and stay healthy and injury free.
Monday, November 19, 2007
confessions of an afternoon napper
isn't it weird how dreams can so incredibly outta this world, yet seem so logical at the time we're dreaming it?
i've always wondered how dreams occur. it seems that i only start dreaming when i have had sufficient rest cos back in school days when it was all about mugging, followed by more closet mugging, sleep was never enough and i dont recall having many dreams then. and during ns days, needless to say i slept like a log. that is, if i had a chance to sleep..
why do we have dreams? people say dreams are omens. some say if u think hard enough about sth, u will dream about it. well i duno but the dream i had was super super no-link n weird.
i dreamt that i was in this hotel lobby-kind-of-place and i dont know who i was with. but i had spare time then there was this motorbike rental thingy available like $10 for 1 hour. and so i paid up and the lady wheeled out a bicycle and started fixing up the engine n exhaust pipe to the bicycle! (pls dont think im a retard after reading this). and it was a very fast process like 3 minutes only. then i could start riding around the lobby! as i got onto the bicycle-bike, suddenly it wasnt a bicycle anymore. it was a humongous monster-looking speed bike! it was yellow and black and had racing decals. thats the beauty of dreams anything is possible. better than hollywood. oh wells so i had difficulty controlling the beast cos it is so powerful, but i managed to navigate my way around the lobby and the doors to all the private lounges were all opened up to make it like a mini-racing track. but i got rather bored of it after awhile and looked at my watch. 6.18pm, another 12 mins to go before i had to return the bike.
so i made a few more rounds before i went back to the shop but the lady wasnt around! so i started to remove the engine and parts on my own. then the lady came out and started nodding her head and saying, good. u must remove the earth wire first then the negative then the positive. or is it negative then earth then positive? then being a physics student, i told her it was the -ve first. then she was like some physics teacher liddat and she carried on saying, why u dont get electrocuted? cos the voltage is high thats why the current is low. then im like hellooo lady, i studied physics. i think i know all these better than u. she seemed to ignore me and said, "take out your physics tutorial 3.4!" i was stunned and looked into my bag and actually had it! she asked me to look at question 6A, and predictably, i hadnt done it. it was some forces diagram. she said, ok u do now i mark for u. then there was this small kid that had rented a bike too and she told him, after he finish, its your turn to do the question. then im like hey auntie.. this question is jc level, how can a small boy like him do? then she was like, its good to start young.
then i woke up to sounds of my phone ringing - it was kellyservices calling. and the gentle but unmistakeable pitter patter of rainfall was hitting against the balcony outside my window.
i've always wondered how dreams occur. it seems that i only start dreaming when i have had sufficient rest cos back in school days when it was all about mugging, followed by more closet mugging, sleep was never enough and i dont recall having many dreams then. and during ns days, needless to say i slept like a log. that is, if i had a chance to sleep..
why do we have dreams? people say dreams are omens. some say if u think hard enough about sth, u will dream about it. well i duno but the dream i had was super super no-link n weird.
i dreamt that i was in this hotel lobby-kind-of-place and i dont know who i was with. but i had spare time then there was this motorbike rental thingy available like $10 for 1 hour. and so i paid up and the lady wheeled out a bicycle and started fixing up the engine n exhaust pipe to the bicycle! (pls dont think im a retard after reading this). and it was a very fast process like 3 minutes only. then i could start riding around the lobby! as i got onto the bicycle-bike, suddenly it wasnt a bicycle anymore. it was a humongous monster-looking speed bike! it was yellow and black and had racing decals. thats the beauty of dreams anything is possible. better than hollywood. oh wells so i had difficulty controlling the beast cos it is so powerful, but i managed to navigate my way around the lobby and the doors to all the private lounges were all opened up to make it like a mini-racing track. but i got rather bored of it after awhile and looked at my watch. 6.18pm, another 12 mins to go before i had to return the bike.
so i made a few more rounds before i went back to the shop but the lady wasnt around! so i started to remove the engine and parts on my own. then the lady came out and started nodding her head and saying, good. u must remove the earth wire first then the negative then the positive. or is it negative then earth then positive? then being a physics student, i told her it was the -ve first. then she was like some physics teacher liddat and she carried on saying, why u dont get electrocuted? cos the voltage is high thats why the current is low. then im like hellooo lady, i studied physics. i think i know all these better than u. she seemed to ignore me and said, "take out your physics tutorial 3.4!" i was stunned and looked into my bag and actually had it! she asked me to look at question 6A, and predictably, i hadnt done it. it was some forces diagram. she said, ok u do now i mark for u. then there was this small kid that had rented a bike too and she told him, after he finish, its your turn to do the question. then im like hey auntie.. this question is jc level, how can a small boy like him do? then she was like, its good to start young.
then i woke up to sounds of my phone ringing - it was kellyservices calling. and the gentle but unmistakeable pitter patter of rainfall was hitting against the balcony outside my window.
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